The depression sets in properly in the early hours of the morning, preventing me from sleep. I mindlessly watch content as the light creeps in, and all the bad thoughts with it, creating a vicious cycle of pain.
Later in the day I finally seek the unconsciousness I crave, and let it overtake me. It’s so much easier to lose myself to world instead of reliving everything in minute detail, over and over again. The darkness gives me peace, for a little while at least.
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