A year ago I would say words knowing that they would be ignored or deflected in bored resignation. So I could say whatever I wanted with no consequences or reaction and grew accustomed to that half life.
It’s not like that now, I keep saying things that are received and remembered. Words that are taken to heart and thought about. I keep letting my mouth run away from me causing misunderstandings that could be avoided. Relaxing in to this isn’t going to be easy.